Truth on Tuesdays

Flashback

“I am redeemed….you set me free…”

The familiar lyrics flooded my ears and I instantly remembered a time when I would so shakily sing them, my voice breaking during that second verse every time, hoping my heart would believe them one day. “Lord, please let this be true of me. I need it to be true.”

I came back to the Lord in a serious way six years ago…and there are certain things that can take me right back to those early heart aches. I wanted so desperately to be the new creation the Bible promised…to have my new heart…to be different. That hasn’t changed, I still desire so badly to be like Jesus…to be who He created me to be…but it’s a bit different now.

Back then my heart was so hard…prone to wander I’d wandered so far and I could feel it. I’d created so much distance when now I wanted so desperately to be close to God. So full of shame for all the things I’d done… struggling to forgive myself let alone believe a holy God could forgive me.

So I choked out songs about grace, redemption, and not being who I used to be with tears streaming down my face…had colorful scripture phone backgrounds reminding me the old things have passed away and promising God was creating something new within me…but for so long I couldn’t feel it. So my immature heart full of pain and trust issues didn’t believe. So I cried out in pain over and over and over.

“We gage so much on emotion, or lack thereof, yet love cannot be measured by what is felt.”

Dana Chandler-Deep Unto Deep.

Hindsight is a gift. I can reflect on the years and see all the ways God was working when I couldn’t see or feel it. The journey…the process creates such an intimacy with the Lord when you keep seeking Him even during ‘dry’ seasons when fruit isn’t showing yet.

Six years later I hear that same song and I can sing it…with strength and boldness and no tears of disbelief. Six years later I still struggle with shame but it’s a different struggle…because so much progress has been made in the that process. Six years later I have different scriptures defining my season as my phone background.

Six years later I can testify that I have a new heart…I am a new creation. Still a work in progress but if I could hug my younger self and say just keep singing…just keep speaking…this grace, this redemption, this heart softening you are crying out for is so real and you’ll be able to feel it soon, I’d do it. If I could hug you and do the same I would.

Keep singing. Keep clinging. Keep praying. Keep seeking. Don’t ever give up. God hears you, sees you, and is working His perfect love in your life even when you may not see or feel it.

“Jesus I’m not who I used to be, cause I am redeemed. Thank God redeemed.”

Redeemed- Big Daddy Weave

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Truth on Tuesdays

How Important Is The Heart?

God says to guard your heart ABOVE ALL else because EVERYTHING flows from it!  God has changed my heart in so many ways and I want to encourage anyone who may not be seeing that immediate change to hold on.  Press into God, don’t give up on your heart change!

“I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.”  Ezekiel 36.26

“Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.”  2 Corinthians 5:17

“Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.”  Psalm 51:10

All the love in Christ Jesus ❤

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Our Hope

“We put our hope in the Lord . He is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. Let your unfailing love surround us, Lord , for our hope is in you alone.”

Psalms 33:20‭-‬22 NLT

I’ve tried putting my hope in people and even things but nothing except the Lord has proven unfailing, perfectly faithful all the time.  

Lord, show me places in my life where I’ve put hope in something or someone other than you.   Thank you for your faithfulness and unfailing love.  Show me who you really are,  draw me closer to your heart.  Amen

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Salt and Light

‘“You are the salt of the earth. But what good is salt if it has lost its flavor? Can you make it salty again? It will be thrown out and trampled underfoot as worthless. “You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden.  No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house.  In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father.’

Matthew 5:13‭-‬16 NLT

In order to be the salt and light we have to recognize that without God, we can’t be.   We need God.  The fruit of the Spirit does not come naturally to our flesh.  We have to be born again of the Spirit.  We have to keep coming back to God, remaining in Him to be filled and renewed continually.  

Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me.’

John 15:4 NLT

I cannot live a Sermon on the Mount lifestyle- the holy, set apart life I’ve been called to- without the Holy Spirit.

Lord, help us to be all you’ve created us to be.  We need you,  help us to stay in step with you to always remain in you.  ❤

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God’s Voice

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 https://youtu.be/B8DJ_b2QYac

Scripture References:

John 10:27 NLT-My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.

John 10:10 NLT-The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life

Notes:

My situation is not everyone’s situation.  But hopefully-what I’ve learned recently can be helpful to some.

1.)  It is so important to live a life of abiding in Christ-learning to know His voice and His nature.  When we live a life of abiding, when we intentionally stay with the Lord, cultivating the presence of the Holy Spirit, all day-everyday, seeking His heart and direction in all things even the small:

We learn His voice, we learn His promptings, we align ourselves with Him, we set ourselves up to learn and grow.

2.)  God is not confusion or seclusion.

3.)  God is gracious and can bring good out of all things as we submit to him!

“When I have problems I can run into God-not away from Him-but INTO Him!”  -Dave Roberson

“The questions being posed (by Satan) are questions designed to make you see God a little bit differently, a little bit darker, not in the same light as you did before.”  -Jackie Hill Perry

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Reckless Love

I have been listening to this song over and over since last week, and still every time I am overwhelmed.  

“Before I spoke a word, you were singing over me.”

The depth of that!  I did not even exist in the physical and God knew me, loved me.  “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.  –Jeremiah 1:5 NIV

Somewhere within me I know that God has always known me…I’m not sure how to explain it but makes my heart just fill up.

The other part that really gets me:

“When I was your foe, still your love fought for me.”

Gahhhh!  It’s so true!  I look back and see God taking care of me, protecting me, fighting for me over and over even when I had turned my back on Him.  He didn’t have to!  He could have left me!  He would have had every reason to leave me in my mess, but He didn’t.  How can I not be a puddle of thankful tears right now!

“You have been so, so kind to me.”

I have many more thoughts and feelings but I’ll leave it at this.  I encourage you to give this a listen, and my prayer is for the Lord to speak to your spirit, all the ways He loves you.  

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Be Gracious With Yourself

Perfectionism: refusal to accept any standard short of perfection.

Most who struggle with perfectionism (present company included) can agree that holding yourself to such unrealistic expectations can lead to:

Self Loathing.  Frustration.  Discouragement.  Exhaustion.  Ect…ect…ect

But God, in His loving kindness, is saying to me over and over these last couple weeks:

…be gracious with yourself

God does not expect perfection.

WOOSH!  Freedom!  Lord, help me to fully grasp this!

Last weekend the Lord led me to Isaiah 30:18, the NIV reads like this:

“Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you;

    therefore he will rise up to show you compassion.

For the Lord is a God of justice.

    Blessed are all who wait for him!”

Now…there is a lot to unpack here but I want to focus on the grace part.  The verses right before this are describing people, God’s chosen people BTW, who had rejected Him…who sought protection elsewhere.  This section in my Bible is actually called “Woe to the Obstinate Nation”.  Obstinate meaning, stubbornly refusing to change one’s opinion or chosen course of action, despite attempts to persuade one to do so.  And yet, God breaks in and says in verse 18 that He longs to be gracious to them, the obstinate nation!  In verse 19 He goes on to say “how gracious He will be when you cry for help!  As soon as He hears, He will answer you!”

So, if God, who actually is perfection, can be so incredibly gracious to me, who actually can never be perfection…can long to be gracious towards us even when we’ve rejected Him, we can certainly learn from our Father, and be gracious with ourselves and those around us.

With love in Christ Jesus ❤

Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.  -1 Peter 1:2