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Reckless Love

I have been listening to this song over and over since last week, and still every time I am overwhelmed.  

“Before I spoke a word, you were singing over me.”

The depth of that!  I did not even exist in the physical and God knew me, loved me.  “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.  –Jeremiah 1:5 NIV

Somewhere within me I know that God has always known me…I’m not sure how to explain it but makes my heart just fill up.

The other part that really gets me:

“When I was your foe, still your love fought for me.”

Gahhhh!  It’s so true!  I look back and see God taking care of me, protecting me, fighting for me over and over even when I had turned my back on Him.  He didn’t have to!  He could have left me!  He would have had every reason to leave me in my mess, but He didn’t.  How can I not be a puddle of thankful tears right now!

“You have been so, so kind to me.”

I have many more thoughts and feelings but I’ll leave it at this.  I encourage you to give this a listen, and my prayer is for the Lord to speak to your spirit, all the ways He loves you.  

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Be Gracious With Yourself

Perfectionism: refusal to accept any standard short of perfection.

Most who struggle with perfectionism (present company included) can agree that holding yourself to such unrealistic expectations can lead to:

Self Loathing.  Frustration.  Discouragement.  Exhaustion.  Ect…ect…ect

But God, in His loving kindness, is saying to me over and over these last couple weeks:

…be gracious with yourself

God does not expect perfection.

WOOSH!  Freedom!  Lord, help me to fully grasp this!

Last weekend the Lord led me to Isaiah 30:18, the NIV reads like this:

“Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you;

    therefore he will rise up to show you compassion.

For the Lord is a God of justice.

    Blessed are all who wait for him!”

Now…there is a lot to unpack here but I want to focus on the grace part.  The verses right before this are describing people, God’s chosen people BTW, who had rejected Him…who sought protection elsewhere.  This section in my Bible is actually called “Woe to the Obstinate Nation”.  Obstinate meaning, stubbornly refusing to change one’s opinion or chosen course of action, despite attempts to persuade one to do so.  And yet, God breaks in and says in verse 18 that He longs to be gracious to them, the obstinate nation!  In verse 19 He goes on to say “how gracious He will be when you cry for help!  As soon as He hears, He will answer you!”

So, if God, who actually is perfection, can be so incredibly gracious to me, who actually can never be perfection…can long to be gracious towards us even when we’ve rejected Him, we can certainly learn from our Father, and be gracious with ourselves and those around us.

With love in Christ Jesus ❤

Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.  -1 Peter 1:2

 

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Rule #1: Don’t Give Up

My husband consistantly asks the youth at church, ‘What is rule #1 of being a Christian?’

The simple answer: Don’t. Give. Up.

No matter what.  No matter who.  No matter where.  No matter why or how.

Just don’t give up.

I know what it’s like to be tired.  I’ve let words like failure and defeated describe me.  I’ve  felt like I have no idea how I can fight the same battle even one more second, especially if the outcome is just going to be another failure to add to that list of faults I keep against myself.  I’ve wanted to just curl up and give up.  Stop trying.  Stop caring.  Stop loving.  Stop fighting.  Just stop.

In my experience…the pain of giving up has actually been worse than the pain of getting back up.  In my experience when I’ve given up it’s meant I’ve given up on God’s promises and plans.  It’s meant disobedience on my part thus creating distance between myself and my ever loving Father.

But when I’ve chosen to get back up…when I’ve looked up to heaven and proclaimed that the only strength I have left is that which the Lord can give to me in that moment, something powerful has stirred up within me.  Something that I know is not of myself because I had exhausted myself completly.  And those moments of weakness, where relying on God was the only way of getting back up, have proven much easier than any moment that I allowed myself to stay defeated.  

My prayer in this moment is that anyone reading this…at the edge of giving up…whatever that looks like in your life…in whatever situation…that God would stir within you a strength that can only come from faith in our great God.  A strength to get you back up on your feet…to build your faith all the more, to be able to walk through this season, not defeated but victorious.

God wants to help you.  Will you let Him?  Will you trust Him?

“The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.”

Psalm 28:7 NIV

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Husband Brags 

Even after I was a complete jerk to him on the phone, he came home with flowers, food, and kisses, told me he was sorry my day was stressful and that he loved me.

Uhmm…I’m totally stealing a line from my new favorite TV series “my husband is a freaking super-hero”. – Rebecca, ‘This is Us’

God is so good for blessing my life with such a loving husband.  And don’t even worry I totally apologized for being such an emotional jerk-face.  I promise.

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Out of the Wilderness

Goodness it has been too long since I’ve written anything here!  I wish I could say this is the only place I removed myself from but that wouldn’t be true.  You see, I’ve been inside of a season of discouragement.  While there were many real reasons for this discouragement the only one that really means anything is this: the majority of the time I found myself only looking at my circumstances.  The things that kept happening, consumed by my feelings…and not often enough was I looking at God.  I was still reading my Bible.  I was still praying.  I was still attending church.  I still believed in God…I just magnified my circumstances instead of His goodness.

But now…

Now something new is happening.

As the lady at church said on Saturday, I have been in a wilderness.  Surrounded by barrenness and desolation.  But I am coming up out of this wilderness, leaning on my God.  I will be alive again.

God has been nothing but gracious to me, nothing but faithful.  Even when I took my eyes off of Him and looked at the turbulent waves all around me, He called my name, grabbed my hand, and saved me again and again and again.  Over and over He has proven trustworthy, even though I don’t deserve any of His goodness.

My circumstances have not changed (although I know God is working out things in ways I can’t see fully just yet) but my focus has changed.

‘You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you!’

Isaiah 26:3 NLT

So dear brothers and sisters in Christ, if you have found yourself inside a wilderness, I proclaim that even as you are reading this you will begin to feel a stirring in your spirit, a strength welling up within you. And that in Jesus’ name you will rise up, look to God who is so full of everything you’ll ever need, and begin walking out of that desolate, discouraging place, leaning on our faithful Father. That you will begin to feel His loving light on your face, and His life within your bones once again.

I am greatly looking forward to sharing more of what God has been speaking to my heart but for now I will leave you with this:

“Faithful even when I wonder
You are patient, you are kind.”

Never See The End- Amanda Cook

With so much love in Christ,

-Kim

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On days like this…

On days like today I have to constantly remind myself:

I am loved by God and He is taking care of me.

I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

I am not who I used to be.

God is bigger than my feelings.

I am in control of my thoughts.

My emotions do not control me.

Even if my feelings aren’t lining up with this, I HAVE to intentionally filter these truths into my heart and mind.  And intentionally NOT dwell on the negative, untruthful thoughts and feelings that sometimes flood my being and threaten my peace and joy.

“I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.”

Philippians 3:12‭-‬14 NLT

Press on brothers and sisters.   Forget the past and look forward to what lies ahead.  Look to Jesus and be at peace.  You are so loved ❤